by Elizabeth M. Thompson
How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you
hide your face from me? Psalm 13:1
Sometimes when we are struggling through grief, God seems far from us. It is common to feel abandoned by God at the time when we need him the most. For someone who is intimately attached to God, his apparent absence is an even greater loss than the death we are grieving.
How can I get through this valley without my shepherd? I feel lost and alone and unprotected. Where is my shepherd? Who will care for me? Who will lead me through this? Lord, where are You?
Jesus has not forgotten me. Those times when his presence is not evident drive my trust to new depths. They reveal whether I will continue to seek him or turn to something or someone else in my hour of need. As a sheep of his hands, I know his voice and I will heed no other. I will remain in the place I last heard him speak—his holy Word.
Lord, I long for the awareness of your presence. Reveal yourself to me and relieve me of my feelings of abandonment. It is more than I can bear. Empower me to remain steadfast in you, my Good Shepherd. Keep me from seeking to have my needs met by means which are incapable of satisfying my grieving soul. Amen

